Tug of War

We've all seen it - some sort of depiction of our conscience as an angel and a devil persuading us to do (or not do) certain things.

As I bring more and more awareness to every thought and feeling that goes through my mind, I am able to see the tug of war that happens every day.

My theory is that it isn't an angel and devil so much as it's our ego versus our higher self; our inner caveman and our spirit; our human side versus our soul.

The former is always living out of fear and wanting instant gratification. The latter always knowing what is in our highest and best interest for the future and what we really want in life.

The conundrum is we have free will - and it takes an act of extreme courage and self-love to follow that highest and best path because the other side is so tantalizing.

A few examples how this has been showing up for me lately:

-Hanging out with someone even though I know they're not good for me but it helps avoid loneliness now.
-Being tempted by a drink while I'm out with friends even though I made a commitment to myself not drink anymore but it looks so fun. (Happy to say I have not given in and I'm 120 days+ alcohol free!)
-Eating whatever is served at a party even though I'm on a detox diet just because I don't want to be "that person."

We're faced with these types of decisions every day. The easy way is to follow the devil, ego, caveman or whatever you want to call it for the instant gratification. It takes a strong commitment to ourselves and our future to choose the higher path.

I'm learning to operate more from my higher self and what I know is right for the future I want to create, but it isn't easy. It can leave me feeling lonely, isolated, and different in the short term but in the long run I know it will pay off.

The more I listen to that side, the more the devil has started to quiet down.

I'd love to know, does this happen to you? Start listening to that inner dialogue and see how it shows up in your life.

XO

Adrienne