Awareness

I say this often, mostly because the stat is so staggering to me, but 95% of all of our behavior is subconscious.  We’re very rarely present and we’re very rarely reacting to a situation as it is because we’re mostly just replaying an old program from the past.

This is why raising our conscious awareness is so important because it’s the first step to change.  Once you’re aware of the program, you can deliberately make a different choice.  

As I’ve been on this path, I continue to raise my awareness and it’s not easy.

At times I’ve become so acutely aware of subconscious thoughts, programs and behaviors and how self-sabotaging they are, it almost makes me ill.

I start thinking to myself “What is the point of all of this?!  It’s easier to go back to being asleep and just numb myself.”  

But I know that’s not the answer either.  

It takes courage to look inside yourself.  It’s not always pretty but it’s about developing a ton of self-compassion and understanding that we’re always doing the best we can with what we know at the time.

Once we’re aware, once we know better, we can do better.  And even if we don't do better, that's ok too.

XO

Adrienne