Agendas

My mind has all kinds of agendas.  What it wants to do, what it thinks I “should” do, how it thinks things should go.  

And when things don’t pan out the way our mind thought, there’s often negativity around it.

This weekend I had plans to go to Aspen for the Jazz festival which I’ve wanted to do since I’ve lived in Colorado. I bought the tickets months ago and was tagging along with a friend who had made all the plans.  

For some reason, the week or so leading up to it I was getting a nagging feeling abut it.  I would have anxiety start to pop up when I thought about the weekend.

But my mind was throwing a fit - it had its own agenda and own plans.  “Adrienne don’t be crazy, it’s going to be so fun.”  “You have no other plans, don’t you want to have fun this weekend?”  “Don’t be lame.”  And on and on it went trying to convince me why I needed to go.

I’ve been in this situation a lot in my life - where I have a gut feeling about something and my mind justifies why I should still go through with it.

I decided to listen to my intuition and cancel my plans.  It wasn’t easy and I had serious FOMO all weekend.  But I also had some beautiful experiences and profound insights and I know I made the right decision - even if I can’t fully understand why.

I encourage you to slow down, get out of your head and start listening to your intuition.  Quit forcing your mind’s agenda on everything and learn to flow with where life is taking you.  Things tend to work out much better when you do.

XO

Adrienne